I’m sad about it. Even though the last year was…not so good. Bad, overall. Even though I think we’ll still hang out, and I’ll still see the Li’l Wrangler (hopefully not any less…though I worry about that). Even though I’d started to hate the irritable, impatient, downright mean person I’ve been to the Wrangler lately, and I don’t want to be that person any more than he wants to deal with that person.
Because it was really, really, really good once, for a couple years, and I don’t want to sell that short.
Fuck.
polyopia 
January 25, 2006 at 2:59 am
Awwww, luckybuzz! I’m sorry to hear this. Even when things have turned sour, it still makes sense to mourn the great times you had together. It might take some time apart to learn how to interact with each other as just friends, but I hope you get that back again.
January 25, 2006 at 3:02 am
Thanks, sheepish. I needed a little support on this tonight.
I heart my blogfriends.
January 25, 2006 at 11:24 am
i was just wondering why i stopped by your blog this morning. it’s not because the shift keys on my computer have failed me. it’s not because lucille kept me up all night. it’s not because i seem to have sprained my ass. it is, apparently, so that you could read this. big love from the skycat on the rooftop who forgot how to blog.
January 25, 2006 at 11:33 am
Hang in there trooper!! Good to see you and talk last night…talk again soon.
Lots of love!!
IB
January 25, 2006 at 11:45 am
(((((((Buzz)))))))
It’s okay to be sad and relieved at the same time. In fact, it makes total sense.
January 25, 2006 at 12:21 pm
Thanks, y’all…I’m doing good, really. Kind of looking forward to the next phase…
January 25, 2006 at 4:36 pm
Sorry I’ve been slow on getting to comment on this. I’m home sick feeling like hell.
I hope you do get to stay a part of the Li’l Wrangler’s life. And I agree it’s important not to sell the good stuff short. You wouldn’t have been together for years if it wasn’t good enough for that. But, also, it’s important to know when it’s over.
Sheesh. I remember last fall when we both said we wanted winter drama. I guess we got it.
January 25, 2006 at 8:04 pm
I’m really sorry you’re going through this. {{{lb}}}
January 26, 2006 at 6:14 pm
Feeling for you, lb.
January 27, 2006 at 7:41 pm
I think I need a real email or call on this. I’m just floored by it all. Maybe I’ll go have a drink and try some drunk blogging. Hope you are doing okay.
-mc