- I think I might have mentioned that this will be my third cross-country move.
- What I’m feeling this evening? I remember this from the other two moves, too.
- I’m at home, watching TV, not-working because all my data is on my external hard drive, in PC-based programs, and my laptop’s hard drive is fully dead. I have a new hard drive coming–it should be here in a few days–but in the meantime I’m on the iMac. And I’m telling myself I can’t really work on this…though of course I could.
- I feel a little lonely, and a little weirded out that I’m spending tonight here watching pointless TV when I only have a week left here.
- IB/DM is out of town. Jason is laying low tonight. The Squirrel has all but disappeared from social interactions. And I have plans to hang out with Bad Idea a few times this week, but tonight I don’t feel like drinking and feel kind of like, well, after last night, we might need a night apart.
- That was a lot of intense intimacy for a friendship that’s about to go long distance. Even I’m feeling the need for a boundary.
- Still: I’m lonely, and melancholy, and really feeling the imminence of my departure from here.
- This totally awesome friend of mine made me a mix CD for my travels. I can’t stop listening to it. Especially this song. I’m wallowing, really. And enjoying it.
- I think the mix CD is the best gift one human can give another human. I’m serious. (Sorry, PS, I’m not trying to embarrass you. But this mix is really suiting my mood.)
- Sigh. Sorry for the lame, self-indulgent bullets of crap. I think it just kind of feels like a Sunday.
- Hmm. Could I just be having an oyster hangover?
July 22, 2007
RBOC: I know this feeling
Posted by luckybuzz under can I get some cheese with that whine?, random bullets of crap, self-indulgent navel-gazing[5] Comments
July 22, 2007 at 8:50 pm
Wait! Send it back, and I’ll put Colin Meloy’s version of “Every Day Is Like Sunday” on it!
Kidding. Mostly.
Though I did kick myself afterwards for forgetting to put Kermit and Fozzie singing “Moving Right Along” on it.
I’m all OMG! Ponies! that now someone else I know loves that song. We’ll play it at our BSAD reunion, OK?
July 22, 2007 at 11:14 pm
oh sunshine. i remember this too. damn is it hard. I remember just wanting to hold onto you as tight as i could and knowing i couldnt keep you and then how when we made the transition it was all ok. And I remember the other strangely sweet and painful Bad Ideas. I love you baby. You are always home in my heart.
July 22, 2007 at 11:33 pm
Wow – I just caught up and damn I’ve been away too long! Hang in there, the feelings will pass. And then come back with more intensity. And so on. And then one day you’re alright.
July 23, 2007 at 1:47 pm
Moving is SUCH a wallowing time. You can’t HELP but wallow: in memories, nostalgia, paralysis/fear about the unknown, etc.
My only advice is to revel in it. Because you know, once the moving actually begins, you won’t have much time for wallowing, right? So live it up!
July 23, 2007 at 3:44 pm
Thanks for linking to that song! I just downloaded the whole album.
I’m sorry you’re feeling melancholy. *hugs*