I have to go be resident-expert to 28 students eager to learn about a topic with enormous contemporary and historical international significance (and about 2 students with far more expertise than me who will, inevitably, refuse to participate), and about which I know, oh, let’s say nothing.

I’m not kidding. I just took an internet quiz on the Topic to try to learn something about it. I did okay on the quiz. I feel confident. I am a confident professional. I have been bluffing my way through knowledge since many of these students were in diapers.

Not helping. Now I feel incompetent and old. Oh, and apathetic. Have I mentioned apathetic? Which is nice, because I’m not anxiety-ridden. I have to care at all to be anxietal.