“Anxiety” is too strong…but you know that feeling when you’re hosting a party, and you spent the day cleaning the house, and you bought beer, and stocked the fridge, and bought things to grill even though it is totally going to keep raining because Jason, aka the Grillmaster, said he’d barbecue even if it rains, and you crack open the very first beer, and sit down in your clean, quiet house, and wait for the first guest to arrive? That’s where I’m at.
It’s weird. I wonder if this feeling is actually one of the most consistent of my adult life. I remember this feeling in my first apartment, when I was 17.
I like continuity, in case you couldn’t tell.
May 19, 2006 at 6:48 pm
It’s the erie calm before the storm. The time when you don’t know how everything is going to go. And the mind starts to play out all the worst case scenarios, skipping the good case ones.
May 19, 2006 at 6:53 pm
Actually, I tend to play out the best-case scenarios…though I can’t usually enact them. It’s nice to anticipate them anyway.
And Jesse–sorry your last comment got deleted. I was trying to get the new profile picture sized right…and you’re just too quick on the draw. But yeah, looks yummy, doesn’t it?
May 19, 2006 at 7:33 pm
Phew, and I thought my over excitement and use of the word “CRAP” was going so far overboard you had to nuke the whole post
**Just for the record, I am joking.
May 19, 2006 at 7:34 pm
baby…i think i have a mantra for you. Anytime you get this feeling, I want you to think “at least it isnt gonna be the Lolita party”. That helps me. You always have the kicking assed parties. And weddings too….!!!!
May 19, 2006 at 8:34 pm
I SO know that feeling. It’s great to be in that nice, clean house, awaiting all the festivities. But I always worry for a few minutes about whether anybody’s going to show. I think anxiety *is* the right word for it!
May 19, 2006 at 11:16 pm
I hope you’re in the middle of a fuck-all-good-time as I type this.
Looking forward to the recap!
May 20, 2006 at 8:50 am
1. Love the new pic.
2. Food always tastes better when grilled in horrible weather
3. I’m sure the party went great.
4. You rock!